Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Age Difference

I loved playgrounds till I was about 12-13.
I watched pre-school age TV shows until I was about 14.
I played with my toys till about 16.
I liked to wear matching outfits with my mom in middle school and didn't think that was dorky till high school.
I had no interest in dating till I was 17.
I preferred to hang out with my parents instead of my friends on the weekends until I was 17.
I didn't think it was fun to just hang out and talk with friends (not playing a game or doing an activity) until I was 18.
I got my driver's license when I was 19 because I wasn't interested in getting it earlier.
I experienced teen angst in college.
I was 23 when I first did sexual stuff with someone else.
I still mostly watch TV shows that are meant for middle/high school age.
I dress younger than my age and buy clothes that still fit me from tween stores.
I was 24 by the time I sincerely wanted to move out of my parent's house and live on my own.

I don't lose interest in things or change interests as often as my peers do. If I like something, I'm going to like it for a long time. I don't have a lot of temporary phases of liking something and then losing interest in it a few years later. Most of my all-time favorite things when I was younger are things I held an interest in for at least 15 years, and some of those things I'm still interested in now.

But also, I will NEVER stop doing something because society tells me I'm too old to do it. I will only stop doing an activity when I honestly don't feel pleasure from it anymore, and I will not "let go" of anything unless I honestly don't want it anymore.

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Word Count

I'm currently working on a very long essay about my college experience. I want to talk for a minute about word count:

I've had this blog for about three years now, and I've written an average of 32,000 words per year.
It's not fair to say that I would have done this if I'd had the blog in college, since I have more free time now. I was in graduate school for 3 semesters, from Fall 2011-Fall 2012. I think my word count while in grad school would most accurately reflect what I would have done at Colby.
To make it simple, I was in grad school for the full year of 2012, in which I wrote 27,000 words.
To make it complicated, I wrote an average of 22,500 words per year the whole time I was in grad school.

Let's take the most conservative estimate, 22,500 words per year. Over the course of 4 years, I should have written 90,000 words.
My current essay is nowhere near that mark. It's approaching 40,000 and will probably be edited down to about 30,000.

My point here is, regardless of how ridiculously long that might seem, it's nowhere near what I would have had if I'd been writing honestly about my feelings all along.

Update: Final Word Count = 34,000

Tuesday, July 2, 2013


This is my friend Eli's post about sex and affirmative consent:

 This helped me to be more comfortable talking about my own sexual desires; I hope it does the same for you.